Today started very much like the days during my break. Yesterday, I told myself that I should plan my activities and pack for my activities so that I can leave home the same time as Lynn in the morning. However, without a "start work" time, half the time I ended up like today, still at home at 10+am (time right now).
That's the issue with sharing my home with MIL. Those of you who read my blog know that we manage to live together pretty well. There's little conflict as we can communicate with each other, and we don't face each other 24-7. So the perks of having MIL to take care of Lynn and our dinner is that I need to share the home with her. So during my 2 months break, I usually pack all my stuff and tried to get out of the house as early as possible. My frequent hangouts were Bishan Library and NUSS club house. As mentioned before, my biggest expense then was parking.
I set up a list of things to do for my break. They include exercising, read up on investment/money management, tidying the house, etc. And of course relaxing and recharging, by doing things at a slow pace. I wasn't successful in exercising/losing weight at all. I did set up my Phillips security on line trading account properly, invested some money, but learning money management is a long way to go and I'm still very bad at it. The easiest thing to do, because it is a brainless task, and thus therapeutic, is tidying my house. And yes, the most important thing that i did not do during the break is to go for full body check up.
So during these 2 months, I didn't complete a lot. However, I did have a good break. The 2 trips (Seoul and Shanghai) were shiok. The time spent in Singapore (doing the stuff listed above) was stress free. Oh yes, CNY was fantastic; it was like a let go of a big burden...
One of the reasons why I didn't complete much was that I lunched with my ex colleagues a lot. Half the time, it was them who asked me for lunch. It's good that we did that, as going forward there will be little opportunity to do so.
And I'm very happy to meet some old friends. I met up with Soo Hui (colleague from first job) at Lau pat sat. During the march school holidays, I brought Lynn to meet up with Ivy (friend from JC) and her 2 girls at Vivo city. I also drove to International road to pick up Lydia (colleague from 2nd job) for lunch. I told her that I had been more than 8 years since I drive along PIE to Tuas. I arranged for a group dinner mainly to meet Zane, who had left GF for more than a year, but she 放我们的飞机... And I spent 5 hours with Geraldine (also ex GF) one afternoon, doing lunch and tea! Anyway, I was so busy at GF that meeting my old friends was definitely something that I should do during the break. There are a few more people whom I want to meet up, but I have to arrange again. And 2 Fridays ago, I met JJ for dinner, and ended up spending more than 4 hours chatting late into the night.
Actually I have come to the end of what I wanted to write about my 2 months break. But I think this posting still have quite some way to go. When I wrote the above, I don't have much emotions. This second part of this post, I don't know how my emotions will be.
Today, is actually HT's last day at GF. Do I call it coincidence, or do I call it ironical? 人生很多无耐. Looks like it is inevitable that things come to this stage. I remembered that when we were faced with impossible situations, he will jokingly, and yet meaningfully say that what's the worse that can happen, and that he wish they will just fire him （一了百了). I really don't know how to judge this latest development. I did something very out of character, which was to SMS him the moment I knew that he's leaving. I told him "Everyone loves you and will support your decision". I worked late that night. When I walked home from my new office, all the emotions came flooding. That night, I did a blog posting, and just after I published it, I received a reply from him that says "thank you seow wai".
I also met up with Kelly on last Friday for dinner. She's someone whom I seldom blog about, but she actually played a very important role in my life in the past 2 years. I can say that I have no more 牵挂 in GF except for her. But my dear Kelly is such a strong character; I was so so so so relieved when I realized that she's still hanging on strong, without me there for her.
When and how will my chapter in GF be finally closed? I know it takes time to heal, but I never realize that I can't put GF down just like any of my previous jobs. I was telling HF that I finally understand why JO couldn't let go.
I don't want to end this posting on this tone. I have decided that I want to enjoy today, stress free, carefree. I want to think of my boss who is packing his stuff today. I also want to prepare for a brand new day starting tomorrow. Since I started my new job one month back, I do not have enough time for a lot of stuff (which is the norm for a working mother). So I wanted to start doing and completing tasks (like exercising) again. I will also be traveling for work in 2 weeks time. Life must move on. I had a very interesting and fulfilling 7 years in GF, which I will remember for a long time to come.
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