Am I ready?

I remember that there was once I wrote about November and autumn in my blog; today, I'm going to write about October.  Oct 2014, to be specific.

Before Oct started, I studied the calendar, to familiarise myself with the work-weeks of the month, because I'm starting a new job.  It was supposed to be a long month with 5 work weeks.  Luckily, the first work week started on a Wed (1st Oct is a Wed), there's a public holiday on the Monday of the second week (6th Oct),  and another public holiday on the Wed of the 4th week (22nd Oct).  Still, like all my past experiences, the first month of a new job moved extremely slowly.  Oct 2014 felt like the longest month of my life yet.  This month is so unlike the rest, which just simply whizzed by.

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Lynn is sick again.  This must be the 5th or 6th time this year.  In the first week of Sep, Lynn missed a term 3 maths test that is suppose to constitute 25% of her final grade.  I felt very guilty about it, because the test dates were already made known at the beginning of year, but I did not take note of it.  Soon after that, I studied the school time table for term 4, and quickly familiarise myself with her various exam dates, spread throughout the whole of October, too.  As of today, the EL and CL composition and oral tests are over.  There are 3 more papers next week Mon to Wed.  I hope she will make a speedy recovery.

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Today is lili's birthday.  Joc and I treated her to dinner last Sat day.  I though we will take photo, but end up we didn't.  It's the last significant big 4 birthday that I will be celebrating this year.

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What's the main topic in my blog today?  Actually it's about a very serious topic, which is death.  I  believe everyone has thought about this subject.  There are many philosophical quotes about this topic, that encourage people to embrace life, and to not fear death.  Some examples are
"Life is short, so live life to the fullest everyday"
"人生短短几十年，活着开心最重要"
"人生无常 世事难料 珍惜当下"

I ever wonder, if I'm suddenly stricken with terminal illness, will my reaction be the "I am ready" kind, or the "why me??" kind.

A few weeks back, there was an event to drive public awareness on end-of-life matters in front of TPY library.  
http://www.lienfoundation.org/pdf/news/2014/BSN%20Presser%20Final.pdf
I stopped by briefly, pick up a brochure, and read it on my way home.  I started making mental check list of things I should have done, so that I am ready for any sudden misfortune.  I have sufficient insurance (checked), i have done my will (checked); I have not done AMD (reminded myself to get it done), I have not done LPA, and...

While I'm going through the mental notes, I suddenly realised that there is still one more important thing that I've not done, which is, saying "I love you", and "Thank you" to many who matters to me.  Although I say that to Lynn almost everyday, I did not say this to many others whom I love too.  I don't think I will go up to each and everyone of them to say so (that will certainly cause misunderstanding and panic!).  I'm just going to document this here, in this posting, in my blog.  

I'm happy and satisfied with my life, which I share with all my loved ones.  Even if it ends tomorrow, I have no regrets.  No matter if I live up to your expectations or not, I'm at peace with myself.  Thank you for the wonderful journey together.  I cherish every today" 

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My dear friends, thanks for the wonderful 40th celebration.  Hi Dad, I love you.  Hi Lynn, felt hurt when your daddy doesn't seem to appreciate my efforts to help you with revision for your exams.  Good night, 22nd Oct, 2014..